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Perhaps I've overestimated myself.

Perhaps. Maybe. Anything. I can't differentiate much right now. My current state of mind forbids me from doing anything.

I thought that I was used to it, which I am, to be honest, but then, now that it's hit me, I guess I'm really not as strong as I thought it was.

I'm too trusting. Break free, break free. Pull me back to Sanity, away from Madness. Craving for that short piece of peace where I can throw all caution into the wind, it's unfortunate, but it doesn't exist. Condemned to constant guard, I wish to lose faith in all of humanity, but I can't. Maybe, probably maybe, I'm too nice? Naive? Both actions are rather successful in pulling me into a shithole of emotions. Expel me from it, please. Expel me.